I had another dream about my death. I was first in a town, a town unfamiliar eating at a fast food place, Addison from Grey’s Anatomy was there. HAA RIGHT.But the dream gets eerier, a flood of people fill the restaurant and they’re wearing detailed star wars costumes, arguing, I get kicked out and I need to use the restroom but they won’t let me back in and this town is in the woods, but still paved with solid roads. I start crying and walk away in the rain because I didn’t feel good and I feel alone.

Next thing I know I”m walking up a curved path still in the woods that leads to a ton of crowded million dollar wooden houses along a wooden path that has a dock, I see a couple sitting near some rocks. There are giant tiers that hold wooden square almost like a stone path to hop along out to the water, I’m caring my shoulder bag and I start to walk along the path and suddenly these seemingly sturdy squares of wood collapse and I start to break off the tier balancing and sinking. I scream for help but my purse sinks and fills with water and pulls me down, The whole time I”m trying to hold my new phone up and not let it get damaged, the couple…helps but the skip across water and as soon as they get me closer. the water turns to carpet. And I wake up

I’m lonely by making no effort. I just make myself this way because I feel like the people aren’t right and I am missing something. My life is blocked by walls I hide myself in.

Continuous nightmares of oddly realistic yet vividly unrealistic landscapes. Constant images of my own death or full relapse. Why?

Drank in my cup - Kirko Bangz

Bitch Don’t kill my vibe - Kendrick Lamaar

HiiiPower - Kendrick Lamaar

Swimming Pools - Kendrick Lamaar 

No Lie - 2Chainz

Mercy - Kanye West

Creep - TLC